First Love, First Time

First Love, First Time

Remember being young and wondering whether you would ever experience what it was like to love and be loved? Or, if being loved was too much to hope for, whether you would ever find someone you could experience intimacy with and thus dispel the loneliness you were feeling?

Now imagine yourself being homosexual and coming of age in 1973, a time when homosexuals were despised, hated and universally ridiculed. That’s the situation Lane Bailey, the protagonist of First Love, First Time, finds himself in.

Lane is twenty-six years old, a Teaching Fellow at Harvard University and about to receive his doctoral degree in history. He’s also a young man looking for his first real job, someone anxious to make his mark in life but nervous about what the future has in store for him.

If all of that wasn’t enough, Lane has a secret he’s never shared with anyone. He’s a homosexual, one with ambivalent but often negative feelings about his sexuality; and yet in spite of those feelings, he’s strongly attracted to his brightest student at Harvard, a young, athletic and good-looking junior named Paul Miller.

While Lane has managed to keep his feelings for Paul in check, his impending graduation and departure from Cambridge has heightened his sense of despair. Following the wedding rehearsal for a close friend and a late night conversation with Paul, Lane stops at Memorial Church in Harvard Yard on his way back to his room.

He tries to recall a time when he wasn’t homosexual and that arouses a series of powerful memories. What follows is a journey of self-discovery, one in which Lane eventually comes to grips with his youthful memories and ends up discovering much about love, sex and himself in the process.

First Love, First Time is the initial installment of The Liberation Anthology and an experimental story as well. As written, it’s a standalone tale that can be read and then put aside.

However, the story could also continue at a later time depending upon whether readers would like it to and are willing to engage with the author to make that happen by sharing their own ideas and suggestions for how the next stage of the story might unfold.

Interested in learning more about that? Then be sure to read this post.

Warning: This story is a work of adult fiction and intended for mature audiences only. Any resemblance to persons living or dead is purely coincidental. Unless otherwise indicated by context, all of the characters in this story are fictional, not depictions of real people. Please note that the story may describe, depict or otherwise include graphic portrayals of relationships between men and/or adolescent boys that are homosexual in nature. If you do not like or approve of such discussions or it is illegal for you to read such material, consider yourself warned. If you continue to read this story, you are asserting that you are fully capable of understanding and legally consenting to reading a work of adult fiction.

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Book Cover: Although I have no plans to e-publish the story at this time, I created the graphic above as a possible cover should there be any interest in having me do so. I have minimal talents, skills and abilities as a blogger and even less as a graphic artist. If you think you can come up with something better, feel free to e-mail me and let’s talk about it.

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Read Chapter 1 of First Love, First Time