oh my :-)

Kit comes in from playing in the snow :-)

As promised, I’m back with another update although it’s not much of one. Since last checking in a couple of weeks ago, I’ve been working entirely on that other story I mentioned in my previous post, not the one I’ve been thinking of sharing with you.

That’s one of the strange things about writing, at least for me. Usually I work on whatever I have the clearest vision for at the moment. Right now that’s one of the tales I’m thinking of writing for something I’ve tentatively titled The Liberation Anthology: Tales from the Revolution.

As the title may suggest, The Liberation Anthology is planned as a series of loosely connected tales chronicling the gay liberation movement in America from the pre-Stonewall nineteen-sixties up to the present time. The focus will be primarily on the period after the Stonewall riots in 1969 when the liberation movement is generally perceived to have taken off.

The stories in the Anthology wouldn’t be a chronological history of the people and events who led the revolution, at least not in the traditional sense. Instead, I see the stories more as an emotional and psychological history of how people responded to what was happening around them.

People aren’t always aware when something important begins. They’re busy leading their everyday lives, sometimes far too busy to appreciate the significance of something like the Stonewall riots; and then a new generation comes along that lacks historical consciousness. Stonewall; what was that?

That’s certainly been the case for me; not being there, I didn’t realize just how important Stonewall was. I had read about it, of course, but it was only from talking to other people that I realized its significance; and yet many of those same people were the first to admit they didn’t know how important Stonewall was at at the time.

So even though a revolution had begun, people responded to being gay in the same old ways. Before people realized it was okay to be gay and proud, others experienced a range of emotions from guilt and denial to self-loathing and shame.

In short, people didn’t get liberated all at once. Some still don’t.

That’s the story I would like to tell at some point through a series of loosely connected tales. It’s an ambitious project and I doubt whether I could ever complete it as currently planned. But I like the idea and for the last couple of weeks I’ve been working on just one of the many potential story lines I’ve developed for the Anthology.

Partly I wanted to see whether that’s something I could write about in a convincing way. I thought writing about the past would be harder than writing about the present; in fact, it turned out I had a clearer vision of the past than the present.

But would the story work as a stand-alone tale? If not, could it be connected to another potential story line that would form a more coherent whole? Or would I have to wait until all the tales were written and publish it as what I had planned, i.e., an anthology?

It’s too soon to say for sure, but I’m reasonably satisfied with what I’ve written. If you saw it, you would probably say the ending is unsatisfactory and that might be the case. But then again not every story in life has a satisfactory ending.

I may post more about all of this within the next month so keep your eyes open. I would probably be doing so to see if you had any story lines you would like to suggest for such an anthology. Bedsides the ones I’ve mentioned (guilt, denial, shame and self-loathing), are there others ways people responded to the discovery they were homosexual fifty years ago?

For now, however, I should probably be getting back to that stand-alone story I mentioned in my last post. Taking a break from it has been good; hopefully I’ll come back to it with a fresher set of eyes.

I was a little surprised that no one had any questions about it, even the simplest: what’s its name? when does it take place? where? what’s it about? But not many people saw that last post, of course, just those of you who get notified whenever I post something new.

I didn’t send out an e-mail to my (small) mailing list so it’s hard to know if I’ve completely lost whatever audience I had. But I suppose I shouldn’t let that deter me. I write for myself mostly, not an audience.

The bottom line is I plan to spend the next month looking at the story, deciding whether I’m satisfied enough to post it online, and when I could realistically do that.

As I’ve mentioned before, there’s still a lot of work that needs to be done once I’m happy enough with a story to consider publishing it. I have to translate it into the html and pdf formats for one thing; then get it uploaded to WordPress. I have to write a synopsis that will give you some idea what the story is about without giving away too much; and then I have to design at least one image to illustrate the synopsis.

I also need to do my best to have a real life in the process, something that involves tasks large and small. Uncle Sam wants his share of all those royalties I earn from these stories, for example.

Oh yeah, I forgot; I don’t have any royalties :-)

But I still have to file a tax return on the money I earn to support my writing; and to pay for that benevolent military-industrial-espionage complex that’s keeping folks like you and me and Rudy Giuliani safe from the TERRORISTS. I suspect they don’t love Rudy either. Does anyone?

Plus there may be one or two other things I’m interested in. Do you really think someone who writes stories like mine is completely indifferent to all those cuties frolicking around outside building snowmen like those two up above?

So all of that takes time; and I’m going to be disappearing from civilization for a while in June as well. But I’ll try to post again by April 1st at the latest to let you know definitively whether I’ve decided to go forward with the new story or to put it back under wraps and focus my attention elsewhere.

If I do decide to go forward, I should have a better idea what the timeline for the new story might look like then as well.

So that’s it for today. I hope you’re not too disappointed. If you are, the good news is that not many of you are because very few people saw the last post. I doubt more will see this one.

But that’s okay too. Like they say, sometimes less is more.

My Valentine . . .

Posted: February 14, 2015 in Announcements, General, News

with love from kit

Happy Valentine’s Day, everyone!

I’m back, at least for today; and what better day to put in an appearance than St. Valentine’s Day. If nothing else, I want to encourage everyone to be sweet to their sweetie today; and if you don’t have a sweetie to be sweet to, feel free to be sweet to me by sending me a Valentine’s Day message.

It’d be nice to hear from some of my old friends and to make some new ones as well. So feel free to whisper sweet nothings to me by using the Send me mail link over there to your left and down below :-)

But my main reason for posting today is to let you know I’ve been working on a new story I may share with you later this year; assuming it’s good enough, of course. I’m actually working on two new stories, but one of them is way too ambitious and will probably never see the light of day, at least as originally conceived.

But it’s definitely hot, no doubt about it!

The other story, the one I’m actually thinking of posting, is a love story, but one without very much sex; and if I’m being perfectly honest, it’s not really a new story at all. It’s an old story I abandoned more than a year ago because I was having problems making it work.

Although shorter than Connected and Summer Boys, Summer Dreams, there’s a lot going on in the story. I was having trouble keeping all the balls in the air and bringing them to a successful resolution.

Recently I decided to take another look and decided there were just too many characters I loved to abandon the story entirely. Setting to work, I tried to see whether I could solve some of the problems and I think I have, at least to some degree. I’m hoping I’ll be able to whip it into shape for publication sometime later this year.

Didn’t know I was into whips, did you?

Kit giggles.

Just kidding, people; I’m not into pain myself, at least not too much. I prefer teetering on the precipice between pain and pleasure, sometimes leaning one way, sometimes the other. And that’s kind of how I feel about this new story right now.

Sometimes I think it’s worth sharing with you; other times I’m less certain of that. That’s the problem with being as close to the story as I am. I’m not a very good judge of its merits.

By now you may be wondering what the story’s about. I wish I had a simple answer for you, but I don’t. For now let’s just say it’s about dreams, hopes and fears; about being poor and being privileged and how things like that shape our choices in life.

It’s also about working for a living and going to school, selfishness and altruism, families large and small, and friends true and false.

But mostly it’s about being young and gay and falling in love for the very first time; and then finding the courage to risk everything by revealing yourself to the person you love without knowing how things will turn out.

The question for me is whether anyone is still out there who cares one way or the other about a story like that? If there is, feel free to let me know, either by posting a comment below or sending me an e-mail; and if you’re still out there and have any questions about the story, feel free to share those as well.

I’ll collect any questions you have and do my best to answer them if I can do that without giving away too much; and if there’s no one out there and no questions to be answered, I’ll just slink away again and go back into hibernation. I’ve got plenty to keep myself busy :-)

You can look for another post from me by March 1 at the latest. In the meantime, have a Happy Valentine’s Day and be sure to remind the people you love that your love for them is the thing you cherish the most.

Say it in words, of course, but show it in deeds as well.

Need a hint?

I’ve posted a clue below :-)

sexy feet

Welcome …

Posted: June 23, 2014 in Announcements, Blog, General

oh my :-)

Welcome to The Annex at the Café Palermo. Whether you happened upon this site by chance or were referred by a friend, feel free to pull up a chair and spend some time exploring my little internet café. Right now I’m away on an extended vacation, but you’re more than welcome to to read one of my stories for free.

Before you do so, however, you should probably check out this page to learn more about the Café and my stories. If you’re still comfortable spending some time here after doing that, there are three stories you can currently choose among.

Connected was the first story I posted online and Summer Boys, Summer Dreams is the most recent. Both of them are pretty long so they should keep you occupied over the rest of the summer, but I’ve never been able to decide which I prefer so the only advice I can give is to read both and let me know which was your favorite.

To access a chapter you can just mouse over the name of the story up above to reveal a hidden menu. Alternatively, just click on the chapter you want to the left. Reading should be fun and hopefully you’ll find my stories enjoyable, at least if you’re gay and proud and like to read about people like yourself.

The third story, With Apologies Mr. Dickens, is shorter and probably better read when the weather is turning cold and bitter wherever you live. If the weather never turns cold and bitter, try reading it during the Christmas season. Oh, and be sure to send me a plane ticket because I wouldn’t mind coming for an extended visit :-)

Again, thanks for taking the time to stop by. Please feel free to come back often; and if you enjoy the stories, please be sure to recommend this site to your friends.

going, going . . . gone

Tonight is about a couple of things. For one we’ll catch a a glimpse of what the future holds for Ethan and Hunter, but only a glimpse. Not everything will be decided by the time you finish reading the Epilogue. There may be some things you’ll be left wondering about and that’s the way it should be.

What fun would it be after all if we knew everything that’s going to happen in the future . . . to Hunter and Ethan, D.W. and Brady, Cameron and Zachary, Gina and Marie, or to all of the other characters we’ve met along the way like Riley and Dennis?

Tonight is also about saying good-bye, at least for now and perhaps forever. It’s been fun sharing my stories with you, but life is filled with lots of exciting things and there’s never quite enough time to do everything one would like. I enjoy writing, but there are many other things I enjoy as well so I’m kind of like the characters in my stories. I’m not sure exactly what’ll come next.

In a couple of weeks I’ll probably post an updated welcome message so that any new readers who stumble upon this site will have a better sense of what it and the blog are about. If you get a notice from WordPress saying I’ve posted a new message, you don’t have to stop by to check it out. But you’re always welcome to stay in touch, of course, and you’re also welcome to stop by at any point and take another look at the stories.

I’ve never done it myself so I have no idea how they hold up on a second reading. But I’m planning to leave them up for now and I’ll definitely let you know if I ever decide to take them down; and I also understand there may be a few people who’ve been waiting for the story to finish before reading it. If you’re one of those, I would be interested in hearing from you once you do.

Thanks again for reading my stories, for your encouragement and support, and for being such a faithful audience. I did my best with this story and I’m glad you made it this far with me.

In any event, have fun reading the epilogue. It begins with a newspaper story so pull up a chair, sit down, open your paper and read on; and, as as always, feel free to let me know what you think.

red sky at night . . .

So this is it, the final chapter of our little saga of baseball and love. Like I’ve mentioned before, I tend to prefer my endings understated; although when I finished the original draft of this chapter, I recall thinking it was probably too understated. That’s why I pulled together an epilogue and you’re welcome to come back and read it next week if you’re looking for an ending that’s a little more exciting and to learn a bit more about what happened next.

For now I’ll just thank you again for reading the story. I appreciate it; and I would also like to say a special word of thanks to everyone who commented at any point or sent me an e-mail letting me know how you felt about our tale. It’s the only reward I get for the time invested and I thank those of you who let me know what you were thinking.

Speaking of e-mails, this is my final call for yours should you wish to be notified if I decide to publish any more stories online. Just send me an e-mail and let me know you would like to be added to my mailing list.

In the meantime, Chapter 48 is up. Have fun reading; and, of course, it’s never too late to let me know what you think. It would be nice to hear from you.

going home . . .

So we’re getting pretty close to the end of the story and I realize everyone is anxiously looking for a particular ending and that would be nice I suppose. But if you’ve read my other stories you’ll see I’ve tended toward understated endings in the past, not dramatic ones.

That’s partly because endings are only endings for us, not for the characters themselves. To be sure, we stop peeking into their lives, but their lives do go on; and sometimes, if we’re fortunate, we may even catch a glimpse of where their lives are headed.

The other important thing to remember about endings is that they happen on their own schedule, not ours. They can’t be rushed and require patience. Tonight’s chapter is not the ending, but it does move us close to the end. Recognizing what it isn’t, try to enjoy it for what it is.

With that I’ll just say I’ve posted Chapter 47. Have fun reading and thanks again for sticking with me through what’s turned out to be a rather long journey.

serious too :-)

I’ve been in and out of town the last couple of days and probably won’t be home until a little later this evening, but hopefully you’re reading this post and we’ve scheduled Chapter 46 to appear at the usual time.

There’s a lot going on in my life at the moment and I haven’t been able to spend as much time as I would have liked editing this week’s chapter. Nor has my young friend, the budding author, so it may be a little rough, especially since I’ve had to make some adjustments to the chapter based on what was deleted earlier. Like the saying goes, it is what it is.

It’s probably also time for me to start thinking about revising and updating my mailing list. I never used to have one of those, but I pulled one together after Nifty decided not to publish Summer Boys, Summer Dreams. I think that’s how some of you learned about this story; and while the current list is not very comprehensive and I’m not planning on posting another story anytime soon, you never can be certain what life has in store for you.

The point is that now is the time to revise or add your e-mail address to the mailing list if you want to be sure you’ll be notified if I eventually decide to post another story online. You can do that by e-mailing me directly. You’re also welcome to have your name removed from the list if you like.

I don’t sell the list or share it with anyone; the only thing it’s ever been used for is to let you know I’m about to publish another story online (and I’ve only done that the one time). But you’re also welcome to subscribe here or over at the blog to get notices whenever I post. WordPress maintains those lists, not me, and I’m not promising I’ll be posting either here or at the blog very much.

But I am planning to leave both sites up for now. If I change my mind about that, I’ll give advanced notice before taking them down. So that’s another way of staying in touch that doesn’t require you to give me your e-mail address if you prefer not to do that. Or you can just check back here or at the blog on your own periodically to see if anything new is in the works.

In any event, Chapter 46 is up. Although I plan to publish an epilogue that I personally think will be worth reading, this is the first of the final three chapters.

another budding author . . . among other talents :-)

I’m not actually around tonight, but you should be reading this introduction if I didn’t screw things up. This week I left a special guest author in charge of editing Chapter 45 and scheduling it to appear at the usual time. Hopefully it’s up along with this introduction. If not, never mind; I’ll get to it sometime on Tuesday when I get back and punish the little cutie appropriately :-)

Not being around also means I won’t get to post any comments or respond to e-mails until Tuesday evening at the earliest, but don’t let that deter you from letting me know what you think of the chapter and how good a job our budding young author did.

I’m kind of biased myself, but I think he did very well. Not only did he edit a rough draft, he also expanded a couple of topics within the chapter in a very nice way. He did such a good job I may have to bring him back next week for a much longer run.

In any event, Chapter 45 is (hopefully) up. This chapter finishes up what the last one began and sets the stage for the conclusion of the story. I hope you enjoy it.

holy only because it's so full of holes

Tonight we begin wrapping the story up. As I mentioned last week, I originally planned for Part V to consist of five chapters and an epilogue. The question was whether to retain or eliminate the first two of those chapters.

As I suspected, there weren’t a lot of votes cast. However, no one said they supported eliminating the chapters in question while some favored retaining them. Since I promised I would go by majority vote, I’ve decided to leave them in.

In any event, Chapter 44 is up. Feel free to decide for yourself whether leaving it in was a plus or a minus.

nothing happened here

As some keep urging, I’ve decided to move the story along at a much quicker pace; how much quicker remains to be seen, but for now I’ve decided to conclude Part IV of the story tonight with this chapter. That will spare you at least five weeks of reading and more cuts are possible if that’s your preference.

What I’ve done is replace the six chapters and 29,000 words that would have concluded Part IV with the 6000 words in this new chapter. I apologize if it comes across as a bit rough, but I had to pull it together quickly this past week after it became apparent there’s no interest or enthusiasm for Riley, Gina and Marie as characters . . . or really for anything except a much quicker resolution of the story that ends with Ethan and Hunter living happily ever after.

Still to be determined is how much you would like the conclusion of the story to be scaled back. Currently, Part V, which will begin next week, consists of five chapters and an epilogue. Of those, the first two were originally designed to wrap up a loose detail, but neither moves us much closer to the resolution everyone is looking for.

They could be eliminated as well to move things along if you want. If we do that, we could be done with the story by the end of this month except for the epilogue and that can be skipped entirely as well. It was written primarily for those of you interested in the baseball, but it’s not mandatory by any means.

I’ll do whatever you decide at this point. If you want the next two chapters eliminated, send me an e-mail to that effect; if not, let me know you would like them to be retained. I realize it may be hard to decide without knowing more about the two chapters in question, but that’s the point after all, isn’t it? You can’t really miss something you’ve never seen and we would get to the end the story at least two weeks quicker if I delete them.

In any event, we’ll go with majority rule on this even if the vote count is ten or less as I expect it will be. If you care one way or the other, let me know by Friday at the latest since I’ll need the weekend to rework whatever the next chapter turns out to be. Normally I would start working on that tomorrow so this pause will free up some time for me to do other things. Yeah for me!

In the meantime, I’ve posted Chapter 43. Keep in mind this isn’t a boiled down version of the six chapters I eliminated. It’s a transition I improvised on the fly this week to get us to the conclusion as best as I could.